Felt sad and a bit disappointed realizing that maybe she’s not really falling for me…
Just feeling like playing hide and seek. This kind of feeling and state is really bad, while I’m being through this hard time… Just walking around in “friend’s zone” (as in a movie we watched together), and worse: cannot express my feelings. Whenever I want to say something to her, e.g I miss her, always have to question myself “Will she consider this serious?”, “Am I saying too much?”, then after a while, I decided better not to say out.
Keeping this kind of feeling in the heart is not a good way, but I start to feel stupid telling her close friend too much about what I think.
So, what to do? Blog out my feelings and don’t care what people think or laugh, lazy to pull back the blogs to “Private”, so let it be. I see the counter stop counting recently so pretty sure that people already stopped visiting my page. Who knows, maybe someday some strangers visiting by chance may give me good advices and solutions for this…
Wonder how long I can wait for her to be serious and matured enough to take up the next level of relationship…
No matter what, it’s time to get oriented back to my goals and dreams…
